I
wonder,
when
I think of you in your domestic life,
no
contrivance, no image, no perception,
when
you are you,  in your purest self,
I
wonder how you look in the morning,
when
you wake up from the bed, smile over that naughty dream,
your
scattered curls, your sleepy eyes, your chubby chicks,
I
want to wake up with you,
I
wonder how you look after a fresh shower, 
when
you cover your wet body in towel,
spread
the scent in the room to make it feel like a garden, 
I
want to feel your very own fragrance
I
wonder how you look, sitting in front of the mirror,
brushing
your hair, rolling your fingers on your flicks,
feeling
shy of your own bare body – untouched, unseen,
I
want to feel your soft, tender beauty
I
wonder how you look, in the kitchen,
cooking
a meal & eating from your plate,
wiping
the gravy from your rosy lips,
I
want lick your fingers full of gravy
I
wonder how you look, sitting in the balcony, 
gazing
at the twilight sky, completely unaware of yourself,
yearning
in the thoughts your man over a lonely evening,
I
want to sit beside you and hold your hand
I
wonder how you look, in the bedroom, 
in
your silky nightgown, ready to sleep, 
waking
up in the midnight suddenly of a scary dream, 
and
hugging the pillow tightly
I
want to be with you
to
see you, hiding your existence, 
under
me in a fit of wild love making,
with
me in my arms, unfolding your forest of hair, 
on my
wide chest & caressing it,
I am
dying to see one day, 
how
your body thrills, 
when
my fingers touch it. 
I
want so much to be a man once, 
the
man of your dreams, your ultimate one!!